the proverbial "it"

it's a curious situation... debacle if you will...
when in a relationship, it feels as though everything in every way is falling spectacularly to pieces right before your eyes.

you wear a hole in your stomach just thinking about the mess that lays just at your feet beginning with that first slip on the banana peel we more commonly know as miscommunication.

how did this happen? how?
and more importantly...
whyyyyyy?!

bits and pieces of wreckage are flying every which way around your head coming dangerously close to ending it all with every blow.
a giant vortex of "suck" pulls you closer and closer to oblivion...

at exactly what point did i lose control of this situation?...

and then-
just as though it seemed everything was going to detonate-- an explosion that would surely take out any and everything in its path... including you... and there is absolutely nothing you can do to reverse these horrible turns of events... the howling wind subsides.
the sky turns a violent shade of blue.
everything is as it was and the storm has passed just as quickly as it had arrived... much like that of a texas shower.

oh, god! oh, god! oh... oh.... what happened to the explosion?...

nothing is wrong-
there never was anything wrong.
you come to the realization that everything that was going awry was all going on in between your own two ears, and the hell fire vanishes- like a dream upon waking.
and soon enough everything is just that... a dream.

at this point, things are lovely.
i have nothing to worry about for now.
though i'll carry around an umbrella for any rainy days that may come down on my parade, at least i know that the sun is only just behind the clouds.



--kymn's-ok