the frontal lobe

there are many times in one's life in which decision making becomes a problem. we call this era the "teen-aged years."
at the moment i am in a transitional stage in which i know right down to the detail the consequences that coincide with certain choices i make. i know how the problem begins, i know how it will escalate, how it will detonate, and ultimately how it will be my demise. yes, while i know all of these things and the details which they entail-- my folly is that i simply don't prevent the problem that i can easily avoid.
it's come time for me to start taking my first adult steps into the world without the aide or assistance from they whom i call parents-- but it seems that they whom i call parents are the only ones who are ever bothered by the "blunders" i tend to commit.

last night i had one of the nicest evenings ever with ryan-
had i played by the rules- that wouldn't have happened...
i do not believe i have any regrets.

--kim-is... very-much-proud